You're everything I think I need

Okay, I slacked off. I worked out more on day 2, did the same thing on the treadmill for 30 minutes on a steep incline. Then I went to Zach’s for the weekend. We mostly lounged around, (… mostly), but on Monday, we went on a long “walk”. I wouldn’t really call it a hike, but it kind of was I suppose. We went to the mountains, but didn’t go up them like normal. We just took a long up and down and twisting around trail, and we ate pretty healthy minus a weak decision to eat a small slice of cheesecake.

I was going to go back to the treadmill today after I got off work, but my feet were killing me, and my dad was already home. Something about other people being home and being able to walk outside and see me  … I don’t like it! So I probably won’t do it tomorrow either, since I work the same exact shift that I did today. But Friday and Saturday I work later in the afternoon, so I’ll HAVE to do some steep walking then.

Unfortunately, my body hates me right now, and decided, despite my birth control pills, I needed to have a period starting today. Which means I have to stop taking my B.C. for a week now and I HOPE HOPE HOPE after this week passes, it’ll go away again like it should. Last time I stopped talking my pills, my body got all screwed up from that Depo shot that I wasn’t supposed to have, and I had a heavy period for four and a half months straight. I do not ever care to do that again in my lifetime. So pray that next Thursday when I re-start my pills that my body goes back to skipping for another four-six months! :D

Ta-ta

I went to lunch with my mom and aunt then came home and set up the treadmill out in the garage. It was hotter than hell, but I guess that made it better. I did 35 minutes of power walking up a steep incline, then a 5 minute cool down of just walking super slow on no incline. I felt a little sick to my stomach after, so I laid down on the couch for a bit. I think it was just from all the water I chugged. I could feel it sloshing around in my belly.

Anyway, I took the first step. I actually did a work out today. Now hopefully I can wake up early tomorrow morning and do it again and hit the shower before work.

I can do this. I need to do this.

I weigh more than I ever have in my entire life. I hate it. I hate myself for being this fat. I’m done now. I’m done sitting around and complaining about it. I stretched for a bit, and will do some more tonight before bed; in the morning, I’m going into the garage where our treadmill is, and I’m going to put it on a steep incline and work my fat ass off. 

Maybe this will become a weight loss blog? Hope so.

I feel like I annoy.

Bleh.

It would be awesome if there were time stamps here. It’s been a long time since I’ve come here. There’s nothing new or exciting to report on.

I epically failed my first Math Exam. I didn’t expect anything but that.

Anywhooo, … I have work 11:30-8 tomorrow, then a four day weekend! I’d rather just call in tomorrow and have a 5 day, but then someone will mess up all the stuff I work on, so I guess I’ll go in, since money’s all important and stuff.

KTHX BAI

Well, it’s Saturday night. Zach will be home Wednesday night. It seems so far away still!! But luckily I’m working the next four days in a row, so I’m hoping that distracts me

are my favorite when they start and end with him

He actually said it!! He said “I love you” to me! This Christmas was made the best ever because of it! He spent Christmas afternoon with me and my family, and we didn’t have to be back at his house till about 7, so he and I went back to my house, and he bought me three computer games. While waiting for them to upload, I crawled on my bed and laid on my back, talking to him. He came over and laid on top of me, and we were goofing off. And he asked if I wanted my birthday present. I laughed and said “no, it’s not my birthday!!” to which he replied, “okay, Christmas present then!” And I laughed and tried to push him off me, while covering my nose because I thought he was going to put his mouth over my nose and blow, which is funny and annyoing at the same time. I really thought that’s what he was up to, but instead, he leaned down to my ear and whispered “I love you.” I got all teary eyed, and he was teasing me for it. But he actaully said it to me. And now … I don’t think I mind so much that he’ll be gone for a little over a week to see Liz. I mean, I do, but he usually goes for 3 or 4 weeks. This trip is only about 10 days. Maybe while he’s there, he’ll accidently call her my name, and she’ll get pissed and break it off. Or maybe he’ll realize he doesn’t need to be flying way out there for someone when he’s got someone like me here, at home.

Sigh. Best night of my life thus far. No one’s ever said those three words to me other than my family. This is a big moment in my life, and in our relationship. I’m completely happy right now.

when you live with three neices who are constantly crying, fighting, or ruining your belongings.